Friday, August 20, 2010

A Final Post

Okay, so this is a little late. The last couple weeks in Pittsburgh were very busy, though, and I went straight from Pittsburgh to Minnesota, so I just got back to Iowa on Wednesday and jumped into work yesterday. It's hard to believe that just over a week ago, I was still in Pittsburgh, so much has happened since!

The other reason that I haven't written this post yet, though, is the fact that I really am not sure what I want to say in it. I feel like a lot happened over this summer, but I also feel like a lot of things began, and that I'm in the middle of a lot of things right now. And it's hard to write something "final" when you're in the "middle." But I guess I'll start with the things that can be made conclusive and move to the less certain stuff from there.

Obviously, the time at the doctors' is over. I am so glad that I decided to go to Allegheny Medical this summer and that everything worked out in terms of having a place to stay and having my insurance cover all the visits. There are still so many new things that I have started worrying about in my life that sometimes I forget that four months ago, I was spending hours researching doctors, trying to find someone who could help me, trying to make a wise decision, and trying to work out insurance. Looking back, I can see that God led me exactly where I needed to go and answered all of my prayers. And, yes, that should be a lesson to current-me to stop worrying about the uncertain things in my life right now and remember that God always works everything for my good. I know. I'm working on it :-)

I don't know what is going to happen when classes begin. I do know that I feel a lot better now than I did at the beginning of the summer, though. I don't think I realized how much better I felt until yesterday and today as I was walking around familiar parts of Iowa City and remembering, "Last time I did this, it was so hard I wanted to cry." And now, the hill up Washington is difficult, but, generally, walking around hasn't been too teary yet :-)

Also, obviously, the time of living in Pittsburgh is over. I miss it. I miss living in a city, and I miss the people, and I miss Pennsylvania in general. Also, I miss Whole Foods. :-) Since coming back to Iowa, though, I've also realized that I do *like* Iowa. I love my apartment, I like North Liberty, I like the University, and I like having lots of academic-y friends with whom I can have lots of academic-y conversations.

There is still so much to do with my diet and PT, and there is still a lot that is new and changing in my life, but if anything, this summer has reminded me that God does really good things for his children. Now, I just need to remember that and trust him as I face what lies ahead.